Happy Birthday weekend.

Halloween's comin up
So is the birthday :3

And I'm tryin to plan it, but there's like...nothing I can do T.T [it's nov.6], gonna have a party that Saturday for the kiddies in schools.

I really needed to update my journal.

xD

On Wednesday, I went to Lizzie's house...and it was fantastic. Everyone was very very pretty! ^^ But then, we played truth or dare, and I was asked a question that I really didn't know the answer to.
"If you could turn back time and change anything in your life, what would it be?"
Thoughts raced through my head like I had just opened Pandora's box.
[i] What would I change? [/i]
My initial thought was to not have surgery when I was 13 mos, but then...well, I'd be dead. My second thought: Maybe...to live a healthier life. [not so many hospital visits]
oh wait, I'd be dead then too.
Then I thought Maybe I would change to be a better person... But then who would I be today?
My Ultimate Decision was "I wouldn't change anything"
Because, you know...
I wouldn't
I am who I am because of the surgeries, and because of my friends, how little or how many I have.
So...
haha, that's what's been on my mind lately.
<3~

I keep having this reoccuring dream...about Axel...0o.
It also has alternative endings...
and it goes a little something like this
[hit it]

Axel's walking down this street somewhere downtown-looking and it's raining. He just cheated on Demyx with Roxas [] and he's crying. :3

Alternative ending #1: Xaldin and Xemnas pull up in this red pick up truck and Xaldin is like "HEY AXEL!" and Axel gives 'em the finger [xD]. So then Xemnas turns into this huge asshole, saying stuff like "HEY! I DON'T SEE YOU IN A CAR, YOUR WALKIN THE THE RAIN, BUDDY!" and Xaldin is this house-wifey like character, telling Xemnas to stop taunting Axel.

Alternative ending #2: (my favorite) Roxas comes out of his house and convinced Axel to leave Demyx and they go back to Roxie's house. ;]

Alternative ending #3: Demyx is pissed. 'Nuff said

Alternative ending #4: Axel has one of those 'look up to the sky and yell why' moments and goes crawling [literally] up the steps back to Demyx's bed. ^^!

I'M ALIVE!
[cause you care so much ]

But dying for a roleplay, preferably a VAMPIRE or Harry Potter or...actually it doesn't matter

If you have AIM, IM me at: x Rouge Marie x and if you don't, message?


FYI- I know, I know, I'm not gonna get any takers but..eh.